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Home
means nothing to me
after my "brother" came to destroy
No one will be happy
My parents suffer
My sisters struggle
I personally feel that
home is not home
home is just for us to stay and sleep
without happiness
Nothing special

HATE

Hating people
I admit that is very tough
Suffer feeling that I've never try
But now
I'm fucking hate my brother!!!
I really do
And I even hate myself
For believing him
I have no idea why

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I still remember
This was my nightmare!!!
All I wanted
Its get rid of him
But my family seems to wanted to keep him
I have no choice
I'm f***ing hate myself
Why I borrowed my card to him
So that he can go to China?
And now he seems to pretend that he doesn't know anything
I'm so damn stupid!!
I really really wanted to move out
Or just get rid of him
In order for me to have peaceful life!

TIme Of My Life

Started to think back
This half year
really really damn sucks!
Just doing my best
to fight for my time of my own life!

-Blue-

Does it worth?
Whenever
Whatever
Decision we had made
Just started to think of
Does it worth?
Do we need to bare the consequences?
Of course we need to
But how long it takes?
How long we need to suffer??
We wouldn’t know
But one thing we know is
Don’t regret!!!
Never and ever!!

-S@M-

He used to be a good brother
But now
WTF????!?!?!
He divorce cause of third party
But he still keep denying
And blaming parents were the one who pushed him to get married
WTF???!?!?!?!
He is broke
And borrow money from us
But he pretended that he didn’t
WTF?!?!?!?!?!!
He said he wanted to move out
But he used me as an excuse
In order to convince parents to allow him to do so
WTF?!?!?!?!?!!

-Thoughts-

Love is complicated
It makes people so emotional
I mean…extremely emotional
From heaven to hell
From happiness to sadness
No matter how it tastes
People still go for it and challenge it without regret

What do you think?

-Unknown-

Lost
Makes people worry
Anxiety
Makes people afraid of what happen next
Why we have these feelings?
Why we are so emotional?

-Care-

Care is a concern
Is showing the sympathetic concern without hoping for requital
But
When we care of someone
They chose to ignore
Does it worth it?

-Annual Dinner Part II-

I was so happy that i was able to attend my new company's Annual Dinner
It was held at Tai Thong Odeon Restaurant (If i didn't spell wrong)
The food was lousy!!
To be frank
Am not a choosy person
But the food was so ‘delicious’
Till that I stopped after I took a first bite
Sorry
But it was a good event for everyone though
Especially for me (the newcomer)
That can get to know our senior managements
And
The party is ON!
Coz of everyone was so high and drunk
By the way,
I hope that my worry part will not be a problem anymore in my company.
Cheers!

PS: I was so impressed that Mat Salleh is a good drinker!

-Annual Dinner-

As I mentioned before
I was frustrated
Till last night
I totally forgotten
Coz is way too drunk
To remember what was happened in this few sad days
Maybe it's alcoholic
It makes me feel relief
But it's only meant for temporarily
Oh man
Sadness still comes back to me now
I know it sounds pathetic
But I really need some time to get back on track

-GS '08-

Grrrrr!!!!
Within a month
I felt am so unlucky
Lots of unhappy incidents were happened all of sudden
So that's why I chose not to update my blog....

By the way

Have u ever trust or rely on someone?
Have u ever feel lost after they're gone?
I do
He was my mentor
He taught me lots when am in confusion
He corrected me with smile and patient
We have fun when we were in outstation (I hope we did, lol)
I thought am so lucky to have such a nice person to work with
And of course, hang out with
It's so reliable!
All of sudden
He is gone
Gone without telling any reason
Gone without saying goodbye
Gone without leaving any contacts at all
I know he might not have the right to tell me all
But at least goodbye would be appropriate?
By the way,whatever decision he made
I believe him
I support him
Hope he is doing well in his future
Cheers
My mate

-Trust-

Trust is a relationship of reliance
When people started to suspect
Trust is lost
When people already trusted to another party
but they chose to stab you from behind
That’s betray
If things doesn’t work out
It will ends to revenge
(Maybe that’s my perception)

Just wonder
Does it worth?

Thoughts

I was having a discussion with one of my “out-of-list” colleagues
Eventually found out that
He was nice
He taught me lots which I think am suck on it
Suddenly pops in my mind
whether the nice peoples I met before
Were they nice?
or cunning?
I have no idea……

-Boss-

Can boss be trusted?
Some may help
Some may trick
Some may be your mentor
Some may sacrifice you for their success

Am speechless
cause am not qualified to judgｅ
I distrust my boss!
(ByTheWay, Congratulation to that bitch who being promoted as ATM!!!!!lol)

-memories-

After meeting with friends, who haven’t met in years,
It was just turn back the moment when we were in school
Memories
were precious
and was all we talked in few hours

-3motional-

Is everyone emotional?
Sometime we thought we are good
But who knows someone might ignore you
or even stab your back??
That’s a tough call….

-2-

Today
2 things happened

I found out
there might have a very 'little tiny' possibility
that i wont have my performance bonus in my new company in future
even if i do
i will having it on every March
What the heck!!??!!
Although this is my chosen path (read this)
But please dont bring me to poor
I started to believe
this is my fate

Next
I was so touched when i was watching
A mother was delivered a child
It was so amazing!
At that time
I was thinking
It's good to have a family!!!

Now
Think back
What was i thinking??!!
I am not ready for that (read this)
maybe i am the one who can be influnced so easily
lol

Resolution

New Year's resolution
maybe it's too late

everyone wanted to be more perfect compare to last year
well
so do i
My resolution is to keep updating this memorable blog
it seems to be pathetic though..lol
well i cant think of any for the time being..
maybe try not to be think negatively
that's more realistic..

so what's your resolution?

-2008-

2008
will be a start

Treasure the past
Cherish the present
Embrace the future

But it's quite tough for me
till i don't know how to handle
it jus like the incident that Dr Chua Soi Lek encountered
It will be a 'never-end' topic
that people keeps whispering